locus_ofcontro: (Satiated & satisfied)
It was a FAB evening last night. While things started out with me being late to arrive and having [ profile] curgoth waiting on my doorstep, we rapidly made up for lost time, grabbed food and headed to BARDS.

What a blast!! The TRIBE was in fine form, heckling, cackling and creating general mayhem to the utter bewilderment and amusement of the rest of the audience. I had a lovely time and got to indulge in the most wonderful [ profile] corbet-made Vegan cupcakes!! I'm telling you, this lady needs to teach me how to cook.

Onward to the Huether where even more general hilarity ensued with more than one member of the table blushing and choking on their drink was observed and encouraged!!

This morning was "rushed" to say the least since getting OUT of bed, was not high on my priority list!! Off to collect the kidlet, over to the cancelled Bday event, and then out to Cambridge for an impromptu visit with a colleague that's been on vacation for 2 weeks.

K & I arrived home around 6, got dinner and I've tucked her into bed, and am about to follow myself. I expect my phone to ring more than once tomorrow am, and a BDay party for the afternoon means the gift should probably get wrapped at some point.

The arrival of [ profile] shadoridr into town next weekend remains up in the air, due to abrupt and unapproved changes to [ profile] zagatto's work schedule, regardless, he assures me he'll be here ready to greet the tribe at next weekends BDAY event.... I have to wait HOW LONG???


Sep. 15th, 2007 05:15 pm
locus_ofcontro: (Longing & Angst)
I know it's irrational, but I'm feeling abandoned...

BFHS hasn't proactively contacted me in a while. He sounds happy to hear from me when I call...but hasn't called me lately. I hate feeling like I'm bugging him even though I trust that he'd TELL ME if things were shifting in his world. I was proud that he "asked a girl for a date" the other night. That's a big step for him.

[ profile] curgoth is starting a new relationship as well, and that's got me a bit nervous despite knowing it's not likely to impact our interactions at all.

I haven't heard much from [ profile] macman47 lately....I'm sure that will change.

[ profile] knotty_mark and I talk when we can.

As for [ profile] k_calypso, I'm sure I'll hit her radar again sometime after her birthday.!!!

I have lots of friends available to hang out with...Mostly tonight, I'm feeling a need to snuggle in, watch a movie...and be petted... I don't feel 100% so being held and taken care just a need right now.

However, there's dancer's in from out of town. K & I will head out to their crash space to hang and listen to live music and watch lovely people move their bodies (I may even shake my booty a bit myself) and be sociable. Perhaps a nap is in order first!!!
locus_ofcontro: (Boring Update)
After starting the day with a migraine (from actually HAVING blood flow to my brain for almost 15 hours and it now trying to constrict again!!) I'm feeling much much better.

Had an "interesting" time at the GIG and a discussion with the.....hrm....minister I guess you'd call him... that was apropros for me right now.
Lovely lunch with [ profile] trinshadow and family and then they came to help me clean my house.

Company and help is a lovely thing. I found my floor, K's floor and got the upstairs all vacuumed pretty. I got the stuff I wanted out of the bookcase out, and got my other "dresser" folded and organized. What passes for an alter for me these days, got shifted as well.

The ...hrm...what am I calling him.....the "hubby in law??" ... emptied the dishwasher for me...and dishes got done. [ profile] trinshadow (the new wife) ...taught me a domestic goddess trick for Mirrors that I can't wait to see in action....and she was more than willing to try to help with the migraine by launching a few good slashes at my shoulders!!!

oh...and *wefightfortarts* helped me vacume the stairs... He was very charming and helpful....though chasing the cats is NOT a good thing...

Hrms...I guess when all is said and done, I have a cleaner home, less of a headache, more idea of how this co-habitating thing is gonna work (since talk was consistent throughout), and a free, quiet evening ahead of me.

perhaps I'll move forward on the research into "Tantric Sex"
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
I truly am a moron. I could have taken my sleeping pill tonight to kick start my body into understanding the whole *SLEEP WHEN IN BED* thing.... I didn't. And here I sit. Awake.

I've been pretty quiet on LJ for a while, for a number of reasons including my brain being SO full, that I can't hardly think straight let alone write anything coherent.

So, here's a mini-update.

I'm in the process of trying to convince a family member to co-sign the mortgage with me, so that [ profile] zagatto can be taken off of it. If that works, then I'll be having [ profile] trinshadow and family move in, so we can create a "blended family" of sorts meeting several of their and my needs. I'm rather excited by the thought of 3 parents in the house with 2 kids. It almost seems managable.

I'm still poly. I'm having lots of intense and challenging moments with BFHS, who will likely be indoctrinated into the Tribe, once he has discovered the value of an actual calendar. [ profile] curgoth and I had a wonderful picnic yesterday on the banks of the Grand River and managed to stumble our way around "New Hogsmeade" as part of the Harry Potter celebrations. It was wonderful to re-connect with him on so many levels, and he showed me how to look at several calendars at once. I have tentatively scheduled coffee with an elusive friend and am looking forward to that indulgence.

My kink side is suffering. The need to have the tension flogged out of my shoulders is creeping ever so slowly into the forefront of my priorities. I need to be gentle with my self and very careful.

My brain is foggy on a lot of levels meaning I am struggling with motivation, completions of initiated tasks and desire to be present at home. I'm being an escapist. I have so many books here and none in my hand, just a longing to have them all in my head. I recognize this pattern as fear of change and challenges. It's why I've been where I've been for so very long. It was always easier. It's not easier to stay in that space right now, but the shift is slow going and in the meantime other things are suffering while my brain does it's work. Mostly laundry & house cleaning!!

Well, I'm yawning now, and that may be a good sign... So I'm gonna try this sleep thing again.
locus_ofcontro: (Poly Spice)
I just found this way too funny!!! )


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