- had an impromptu dinner party with M & her kids.  Know them because K goes to school with her daughter, and I've been going to church with them...yes...THAT church!!!  ran into them at the grocery store and decided to have dinner together, the company was nice and the conversation lovely, the kids play well together even if they DO NOT pick up after themselves

- so very very tired, talked to the pharmacist, this is a side effect of new meds

- bobbed around on Hamilton Harbour last night on a sailboat.

- couldn't get the heart monitor today....have to call and rebook

- worked from home, and napped a bit....not as productive as I'd have liked

- have to take time off tomorrow afternoon cause we got in for dental appointments on a cancelation

-still crushing on the fire fighter, doubt it's mutual (but that's actually kind of ok with me)

-have too much fresh veggies here, looks like I have to learn how to make stuffed zucchini!

- wanting another vacation

-have to take comp time in August - and get a vacation day back in the bank too!!

Let's see... so many things left unsaid in so many parts of the world... I could make, and perhaps should make separate posts about various aspects of my life but that involves caring about filters ....  These days, I just filter everything that goes out here... Makes for way less drama and mashed fingers/toes.

But here goes the "one size fits most" update.

Work
- is crazy crazy psycho crazy busy.  Sometimes I miss the concept of getting home and actually being DONE the days work.  I'm chronically behind and while I know that's normal for this job, there's times I wish i could feel a sense of a day's closure. 
- colleagues are fun, but a bad influence in some ways
- we are understaffed, again...wait...that's still
- I'm regularly reminded of peoples stupidity
-waiting for a posting to come up, considering a lateral move

House
- there's a 'get rid of it' box in every room, mostly K's toys and things
-have to walk her dresser drawers to the neighbour for fixing
-situation normal otherwise, though I picked up a dehumidifier for the basement and am AMAZED at how much water it can pull from the air
-want company to work on the garden/yard stuff - hate doing outside by myself

Cats
- Spartakin, the kitten, is crazy  - 'nuff said
- Hime hasn't killed him yet - 'nuff said

Parenting
- my daughter remains the coolest, most exasperating child on the planet, with a BRUTAL sense of humour
- K is away with her dad this week.  while I miss her, I also appreciate the silence

Relationships
- have a few regular dating partners right now.  Some kinky minded, some not
- one fellow I'm keen on to build something...we'll see where that goes

Health
- not great
- dystolic blood pressure is too high, wearing an ambulatory monitor for 48hrs after I return from vacation
- sleep - sporadic
- smoking - mostly quit..if I'm not around someone smoking, I have no desire for it  ..this is where colleagues become a bad influence

Self -care
- stopped seeing "the capital R" a while back, have been doing my own work...ACOA and otherwise
- assessing, and being assesed for the big BP
-discovered that this earthy sign needs more water time....
- aware that emotional and sexual intimacy are VERY DIFFERENT for me...and working on finding a way to work on that
- reading as much as ever

LOVES
- that my ex and I can not only deal with each other with respect and courtesy, but even actually LIKE each other a bit still (speaking for myself here of course)
- that I have friends and lovers who want to be part of my world
- my daughter!  IN all her glory and chaos
- my job - despite the stresses and challenges...its a fortunate thing to have and I'm enriched by the people I encounter

- Home today with K, she's got a sinus thing as evidenced by the fever, the crankiness, and the BIG DARK circles under her eyes, emphasized by a LOT of green boogery things coming out her nose.
- Good Easter Dinner on Sunday with Family and friends!! I can put together an awesome dinner party when I put my mind to it.
- Laundry mostly caught up. This is a rarity
- Still having issus with the upstairs loo....may have to replace the tank...grrr.r
- Have a garage door that works again!!!
- Love the new car, even if it taking a while to adjust to the extremely narrow friction point!
- REALLY aware I have been "kinked" in a while.... to that end, May's BENT is pencilled in
- More Union training coming up...
- feeling more "competent" in my day to day work, gearing myself up to start the Master's research - where, how much etc...
- Looking for a summer plan for K, have a room available for the summer, if there is interest in providing daytime child care! I am good at barter!
- Have an interest in a fellow. We'll see where it goes.
- Sleeping MUCH BETTER...makes it harder to get started in the morning though..
- Enjoying the sun, and feeling the solar power effect kicking in, got the front yard raked yesterday, and know I need Gas for the BBQ cause I've used it already!!!!

Them what's want to, know how to find me. Still reading. Less with the writing. More with the living.

Haven't been updating much...when the thinky thoughts get big, they get the paper journal.

Let's see...

Vacation this week has been alright. Still need to go run the credit to see what I qualify for in regards to a new car. Insurance has not called but the body shop told me they recommended it for write-off. I'd like a 2009 Corolla, but realize that I may have to purchase something "new to me" as my mortgage is high and I can't change that for another year.

Kat & I are learning to play Yahtzee. She rocks at being banker for the Game of Life, and we've played several rounds of Battleship.

Making Cabbage Soup today.

Have a date tonight.... This lovely fellow is NOT going to become a regular on the calendar (though I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince!!) He's fun, good with computers, tattooed and pierced...*gee, I wonder if I have a type!!* oh...and he's not available for long term involvement... (there's that TYPE again!!!)

Going to TO tomorrow to hang with knotty_mark and ladygiggles, just because! It's been a while and I need more Babylon 5!!!

Still learning to trust that other people know themselves better than I do and that "reading between the lines" is not a good idea.

Would seriously like some closure regarding a few other things in my life...I have DVD's to return after all, but from what I can tell, am being blocked from communications. I suppose I'll have send an email to discuss. Why is it, I always get to play the adult!?

Play date this afternoon!! Hurray!!

OH - I have a WHOLE VASE full of Peacock feathers in my living room, including white ones!! I love my friends.

I hate dating sites!!!!

Health - is so/so.... The Whiplash from the accident is settling rather well. I only see the chiro twice a week now. Sleeping is going ok I guess, I think I'm dreaming finally...not that I like the experience....but I have moments during the day where I have to think about things that I remember and ask myself "hey, was that a dream?" Very odd experience for me!!

I am ...content.

Feeling better lately. I'm waking feeling rested, though still struggle with the weekday routines. Allowing my body to wake naturally seems to work best, but means that I wake around 7am or 8am. Which is later than I need to awaken during the work week.
I do not take my meds regularly. I've been taking them on ...essentially alternating days. I slept with the CPAP last night for the first time in a week. I feel the same.

My brain space, is much better, it's amazing what a clean home can do for that. I've been able to maintain most of what the "tribe House cleaner" accomplished for the last week or more.  And it's inspired me to get more done.

I went on a ...date on Friday night...which was interesting but he wanted to move significantly faster, in a direction I did not want to go.  However, managed well enough when I informed him it was time for him to leave.  Yesterday, there was beer tasting at Grand River Brewing company, and I found something I like!!  The company for that tasting, and the subsequent coffee was pleasant and enjoyable.  He's poly with a primary partner, so being friends is the extent of where that interaction will be going.  We have lots in common, and talked well.  I'm keen to meet his wife, as she has a Master's in Social Work and it seems we'd have lots to talk about.  Today, there is a coffee date at 2pm, with a fellow who I'm quite keen on.  Although, having run through the WTF report on OKCupid with our match, I'm seriously wondering how this is going to go!!!! 

zagatto  has fixed K's computer and it will return home with me, when I pick her up.  I'm lookng forward to putting some effort into fixing my own machine!! 

I still have the Jerker Computer desk available if anyone knows anyone who might be interested. I haven't gotten around to getting it on Kijiji.

Went to mylostmarbles birthday shindig last night.  It was wonderful to see people I haven't seen in a while, though I struggled with the volume and multiple conversations at one time.  I can tell it's been a while since I was out to a full social gathering.  I've been spending my time amongst smaller groups and that has impacted my abilitity to be comfortable in those larger settings.  My anxiety goes up!  That being said, I was able to take the moments I needed to get it under control and also get some lovely girl contact moments!!  And I'm now officially considering hiring psychedelicbike as my official hair puller!!!  It's been so long, I forgot that could actually bring quiet to my chaotic mind....

This week is a short work week for me.  I've booked Thursday as Vac, and Friday as well since it's a PA day for K.  I have lots to do in that short week (especially since I haven't done any overtime work this weekend) but that's ok.  I"m looking forward to going to utsi 's Wednesday night and getting caught up since I'm sure it's been YEARS since we've hung out.  Then it's off to mom's for a visit.

Today - vacumming will happen before I go for coffee, and it looks like I have to shovel again!!

Overall - things are good.  There's a few niggling, "requires closure" stuff at the back of my head, but I have to wait on those.  I'm not in control of that, and those people with whom closure is required, do not seem to be ready yet.  I'm ok with that.  In the meantime, I am continuing to move on, in the same direction I was heading before the blast...One step, and one day - at a time.

Well, I'm officially back online. I haven't taken any time to write a real update, but have lots brewing in my head.

Things on the easy share, open filter...:

L is leaving the country. I'm in Lakefield now, after a night out with the girls to see her off in style. Fun, predictable night out with the girls...and I love the shoes!!!!

Friday evenings is becoming "get lost in your car by spending time lost in your head" night.

Possibly prescription for Accuane on the horizon...

I think Mott's Garden Cocktail has given me a rash.

Swim class starts this Sunday.

Plan: Monday afternoon, will involve the boiling down of mint to make Sekanjabin, wanna come keep me company?

House is slowly settling into a rhythm. Still have a few things to get moved around, including a couch. *psychedelikebike, if your buddy is up for being help, I'd like that*

That's about it for now. Back to playing with the puppies.

- Just dropped over a grand on my very own personal CPAP machine.... Insurance will cover over 1/2 that, which is good
- Packed most of the kidlets room today 4 boxes and I am not entirely sure I dented it. One box to my car for the office. One box for give aways
- Putting some thoughts into what will go where when the housemates get moved
- likely not going to Kalaidescope Gathering, more discussion on that to follow with the relevant parties
- Got a letter from a ghost today. I wish she'd come home.
- My hydro bill SUCKED
-haven't been to work since last Wednesday, I'm off Tue & Thurs for medical accomodation, but Friday and Monday I was too sick, tired and migrainish to drive in. I'm dreading tomorrow.
- Clearly getting "better" in the sleep department, I've had dreams...not good dreams...but dreams none the less
- CARNIVALE is twisted twisted twisted
- sorting through my music library is NOT GOING TO BE FUN
- EGADS I have too much music
- Dating websites are NOT FUN

Let's see...

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I'm home again and looking forward to my own bed...

About to crawl into clean, brand new 400 - thread count sheets... A soft cream colour they are... I'm excited...not as much as I would be if i were sharing them...but there ya go...

Had dinner with my dad, and opened his gift after I got home. Pleasantly surprised by his choice. The money he gave Kat will go into her RESP.

Signed up to have 20$ deducted per pay to go directly to her RESP starting the first pay of the New Year. That's one financial goal off the plate for now.

Still not sure where I stand with shadoridr and am waiting for permission to let myself in to collect my books and such. More on that...when I have emotional energy for it, and under a filter.

K made out like a Christmas bandit.

Tomorrow's schedule.

1. Dr's appt in Toronto 10am
2. Deliver the_nita roaster (your house or your work love!!)
3. Collect weeboy's blankie from his Grandma's in Fergus (tentative)
4. Sort through some toys and such for "gift away"
5. Find a place for a kitchen set.
6. Decide when/if I'm headed to K-town by way of Belleville for the weekend.



***well THAT didn't work out right...it would help if I'd gotten my appt time right this am...!!! Oh well, a coffee with an old friend in a leather shop, new PJ's and weekend pants...and a...busy afternoon......
Off to K-town via Belleville sometime tomorrow am...***