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locus_ofcontro) wrote2008-02-06 08:28 pm
locus_ofcontro) wrote2008-02-06 08:28 pm
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Worried about my own...
I have depression and a very poor idea of what that looked like for me as a child.
And I have a 5year old. Who when she's like she was tonight...sounds a lot like what goes on in my head when I haven't taken my meds.
Hearing a 5 year old child say "no one loves me, tomorrow will be a bad day too because today was a bad day, my head gets all full of mad and I don't know what to do"...these are things I have heard in my own adult head. I can manage those thoughts and know them for the messed up chemical bits that they are in my brain and know it's time to adjust my meds....she's 5.
How do I explain to a 5 year old....How do I know...it's the same and not the stress and anxiety of just being a child...
How do I help my OWN child?
**gah...I'm having a want...all the research out there is locked behind journals!!! MUST find time to hit up the university.**
And I have a 5year old. Who when she's like she was tonight...sounds a lot like what goes on in my head when I haven't taken my meds.
Hearing a 5 year old child say "no one loves me, tomorrow will be a bad day too because today was a bad day, my head gets all full of mad and I don't know what to do"...these are things I have heard in my own adult head. I can manage those thoughts and know them for the messed up chemical bits that they are in my brain and know it's time to adjust my meds....she's 5.
How do I explain to a 5 year old....How do I know...it's the same and not the stress and anxiety of just being a child...
How do I help my OWN child?
**gah...I'm having a want...all the research out there is locked behind journals!!! MUST find time to hit up the university.**