locus_ofcontro: (Satiated & satisfied)
- "cause you have no self-esteem ya git"
- "it doesn't sound like identifying the thoughts is an issue for you, but maybe recognizing the feelings is more of a challenge"
- "it's so hot!"
-"txt or something so I know you got home alright!"
-"you're putting it out to the universe, whether you are conscious of it or not"
-"we'll have to work on that trust thing"







And in other news:
- had Martini's with my dancer friend J, and got my astrology update til October 2009!!
- spent silent time in my head
- spent NOISY time in my head....debrief thoughts going onto paper I think...need to sort out comfort issues with LJ!!

There are many meanderings in my written journal, that perhaps when the sun is not calling so loudly may get voice here.

For now....go play... it's bright today.
locus_ofcontro: (Boring Update)
I've been pretty random lately, between not finding the computer set up all that comfertable yet, combined with having gotten "out of the habit" it's been hard to re-integrate LJ updates again.

Let's see...quickie stuff...

I'm on my 3rd dose of anti-biotics in a one month period for throat related ickiness....
Work remains INSANE
Still...dating..???? the BFHS....aka [livejournal.com profile] shadoridr
Still...dating, loving, enjoying and generally playing with [livejournal.com profile] curgoth
Getting along decently with [livejournal.com profile] zagatto and enjoying that as well
Working through the "kinks" of co-habitating with the new wife and family....
Observing how my "cycle" manifests itself without chemical influences
Observing my own unwillingness to own other people's....stuff...
Observing my own unwillngness to own my OWN stuff...some days..



More detailed ramblings under the appropriate filters... if and when I get the energy...
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
This is such a public venue at times... I'm looking to write and find I'm writing for all the wrong reasons when I'm writing here right now.

The silence is not deliberate...so much as it's a space to seek coherence. When I have something coherent to share, I will. Meantime I'm here and reading and listening and learning.
locus_ofcontro: (Boring Update)
I feel better...the odd fever comes over me...and lots of muscle aches, especially in my neck, but the drugs are clearly doing their job.

Took K into the Dr.'s. She has been up the past two nights coughing and claims no problems with her ankle this morning. Dr gave her anti-biotics for the cough and I got her to admit (over lunch) that she really just wanted a day with mommy.

So, we're having a day. I'm gonna help her clean her room (which is SCARY) and cuddle and watch movies.

I've taken ibuprofen for my head & body aches and ate my first proper meal again today. Work has only called once.

Got email from the Great Grandma saying to come on down to K-Town to the trailer on the long July weekend. Hurray...this will facilitate both the date and some time with [livejournal.com profile] lickerishwhip.

Tomorrow is day tripping to Melee, possibly with [livejournal.com profile] trinshadow in tow to keep me sane, and make sure I LEAVE at a reasonable hour. Course having K with me will contribute to that as well.

Sunday is The Gig (hopefully) and hang out time, possibly at a park with [livejournal.com profile] hotcabanasauce, IF I get my carpets vacummed between now and then!!!

Random Bits

May. 9th, 2007 08:32 pm
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
Irritating bits
1.  I have to remove my new toy.
2. Drahma and non-negotiated explicit expectations
3. Work in general

Great Bits
1.  DDR company!!!
2.  Good food, and good Company
3.  Anticipation!!
4.  Plans
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
I am so very tired. I'm sure I'm still adjusting to being back at work...

Hrm...what's up? Let's see.. .I have HELL OF A scratch down the back of my leg from a dog that I recieved this afternoon during a home visit. Unfortunately this home is particularly ....dirty... so I've treated with Witch Hazel and covered it for the night hoping to avoid any infection.

Hrm...apparantly I wrote an email this evening refering to myself as still living in Hamilton....that speaks to sleepy.

I woke up SUPER early this morning and don't know why. I've been hoping that I would be able to start waking up earlier so I can start to DDR in the am...

I have a very sexy BBQ. And fantastic friends who clean rooms, and take cabs to be here with sexy BBQ's arrive.....

I have a "date" Friday night, of the open invite kind...Come paint, and oogle the BBQ... I'll hopefully have propane and things connected in the right spaces so you can cook on it if you like...BYO...what ever... PAINTING MUST HAPPEN though... and possibly assembly of outdoor patio furniture... Hopefully some snuggling with [livejournal.com profile] k_calypso and long talks that have been long missed!!

Hrm...Sat afternoon...there's people at the BRICK...I'll keep it in my mind but depends on when [livejournal.com profile] trinshadow is TRULY willing to accept the kidlet...perhaps I'll keep hers so SHE can come by the BRICK for a hello to the world??? [livejournal.com profile] trinshadow what do you think?????

Sat night is dinner with [livejournal.com profile] neeuqdrazil and [livejournal.com profile] curgoth, I will aim for 6ish...then BENT with many lovely people.

Sounds like I'll be headed back to Waterloo in time to attend the Bday gathering for [livejournal.com profile] the_nita, which pleases me to no end and excites my K who simply thinks parties in the park are the best thing since the invention of ICE CREAM.

I'm eating...differently. We'll see if it helps or hurts.

Work is...work. I'm again trying to establish some boundaries...and have been told I have to take 2 days off this month to use up comp time... SO a "at home" day with K & I that will include whatever she wants to do will eat up one of them...and the other will be for me. I'm not sure what I will do with it yet. If you want me to try to include you in either of those "random" days...let me know.... I've booked them...one is the Friday AFTER the holiday monday...and I think the other is Monday 14th of May......

I wish it was Friday already. I think my body is fighting something...I'd better be over it by Sat!!!

Hrm...

Apr. 30th, 2007 10:18 pm
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
Apparantly I'm hiding out. "who knew"

I'm in hibernation mode. Usually means my brain is working on something.

I'm reading. Really I am. I care..>Really I do.

Minor updates...

hrm...Wed _the BBQ of LUUUUUV arrives and the patio set.

Sat Night _ BENT... [livejournal.com profile] trinshadow we need to discuss timings on this...i.e. are you crashing HERE with the kidlets?? just mine? Or is mine at chez vous?? These answers and more will influence ....whether or not I'm looking at...[livejournal.com profile] ladygiggles&[livejournal.com profile] knotty_mark for crash space!!?? oh and am I still planning dinner at [livejournal.com profile] neeuqdrazil & [livejournal.com profile] curgoth's?

Sun _ painting? [livejournal.com profile] k_calypso can I count you in?

now...more hiding out.

I'm here. Really I am.

Random...

Mar. 20th, 2007 08:11 am
locus_ofcontro: (Faith and Rants)
Sleep works better when not disturbed by the kidlet crawling in and sleeping sideways on the bed.

FACEBOOK is a time-suck (curse you [livejournal.com profile] k_calypso and [livejournal.com profile] sylencespeaks).

Watches that beep randomly are annoying.

Must file my taxes.

Boing Boing is an interesting site.

I'm tired of winter and today is the first day of spring....

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