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What's Happening
Mar. 15th, 2004 09:33 pmI'm not entirely sure what is happening out there in the cosmos but I've been getting some pretty cool vibes coming my way. I recently replied with a surrender and even cooler stuff may be happening.
What's the whole story? I'm working tons of hours and the only release I have been getting is in my dancing. I've had some pretty good feedback from the classes I've picked up for friends. Including the suggestion of teaching more classes. Now if becomes a real challenge. How important is this to me? Frankly, nothing is more important then my time with Katina. And I hate losing ANY spare moment with her...which reminds of cute stuff I need to add to her blog... But there's gotta be some me time in there too. The hard part is feeling like I don't deserve that time. But it's not true.
I am so much healthier when I'm kept busy being creative... Which is weird cause I don't think there's a creative bone in my body (which isn't true either just the line I've been using forever to justify my lack of dedication to creativity).
I've been living this hard-line, touch girl, workaholic life for quite a while. And it's never really fit right but lately the skin is getting more and more wrinkled..As evidenced by how easy the shell is shattered into tears lately.... And I've been thinking about the THINGS I've thought of doing over the years... The poetry/story magazine I want to publish, and the sewing I want to do and the dancing I NEED to do. I don't know why the skin's not fitting now but some of it has to do with Katina, she deserves to see other options. And seeing Joe & I do the things that make us happy is more important then the "stuff" that money can buy. You can't buy time together. I got such joy this weekend out of showing her how much fun it can be to balance on someone's feet and fly!!
I remember being an artsy type.. After all, my degree is in Social Work... and I have all these artistic interests. I've even been accused of being a 'bleeding heart liberal'. Is it any wonder I'm not fitting in my own skin right now?
So Goddess influences are in the air. I'm not sure what they are bringing but I trying very hard to stay open and receptive to them. I think it's important for me to listen right now. And follow the breeze - it smells new and different and frightening and like something I used to know. I've places to go to show her my committment. My cards to pull out, my crystals to find, my candles to burn. I'm here. I'm open. I'm listening.
What's the whole story? I'm working tons of hours and the only release I have been getting is in my dancing. I've had some pretty good feedback from the classes I've picked up for friends. Including the suggestion of teaching more classes. Now if becomes a real challenge. How important is this to me? Frankly, nothing is more important then my time with Katina. And I hate losing ANY spare moment with her...which reminds of cute stuff I need to add to her blog... But there's gotta be some me time in there too. The hard part is feeling like I don't deserve that time. But it's not true.
I am so much healthier when I'm kept busy being creative... Which is weird cause I don't think there's a creative bone in my body (which isn't true either just the line I've been using forever to justify my lack of dedication to creativity).
I've been living this hard-line, touch girl, workaholic life for quite a while. And it's never really fit right but lately the skin is getting more and more wrinkled..As evidenced by how easy the shell is shattered into tears lately.... And I've been thinking about the THINGS I've thought of doing over the years... The poetry/story magazine I want to publish, and the sewing I want to do and the dancing I NEED to do. I don't know why the skin's not fitting now but some of it has to do with Katina, she deserves to see other options. And seeing Joe & I do the things that make us happy is more important then the "stuff" that money can buy. You can't buy time together. I got such joy this weekend out of showing her how much fun it can be to balance on someone's feet and fly!!
I remember being an artsy type.. After all, my degree is in Social Work... and I have all these artistic interests. I've even been accused of being a 'bleeding heart liberal'. Is it any wonder I'm not fitting in my own skin right now?
So Goddess influences are in the air. I'm not sure what they are bringing but I trying very hard to stay open and receptive to them. I think it's important for me to listen right now. And follow the breeze - it smells new and different and frightening and like something I used to know. I've places to go to show her my committment. My cards to pull out, my crystals to find, my candles to burn. I'm here. I'm open. I'm listening.
