Still Home with Sicky

Well, the drugs seem to be working.  Only using OTC medication at this point while we wait for the results from yesterday's tests.  This morning's temperature was down to 102 but still too high for daycare.  Her attitude and demeanor is back to normal.  Tired but playing and talking and carrying on.  Daycare won't take her back until she's had a normal temperature for 24 hrs.  I dropped off the urine sample this morning and she has a follow up appointment with the pediatrician at 10:30 tomorrow morning.

Now the hard thing is my internal stress about missing work.  I can take my days off as Overtime Days, or as sick days.  I'm not past my 6 months probabation yet, so have no benefits.  In my head, I am terrified they will think I am lying, or trying to avoid working.  I am such a work-a-holic it's very difficult for me to take any time off, particularly if I don't feel entitled to it.  Now I realize that this isn't about entitlement, and my daughter will ALWAYS come first.  But this job is precious to me, after the length of time I have had unemployed anything that feels risky is hard to me to handle.  I feel like I should be doing more all the time rather than enough.  It's easy for me to bury myself in work rather than in my other committments and responsibilities, even at times my daughter.  I have offered even to drive to Niagara to pick up some files and my laptop so I can work on legal stuff that's due next week.  Even though I KNOW how crazy that is, I'm still considering it. 2 hrs drive to maybe get a chance to do 3 hrs of work.... It's not the best scenario.  As it is, I have made some calls, talked to the office a few times, made myself available at my home number and cell number in case anything comes up...AND I will draft what legal documents I can. And suck it up. This is my daughter, she is more important then my job and any company that can't deal with that is not a company I want to work with.  We can handle a few lost paid days for me, while Joe is on the outage, so I should just enjoy the time with her and SUCK IT UP.    I'm dealing with the frustration by cleaning my house... vacumming, laundry etc... which needs to be done anyway...  And watching my daughter play around with a variety of toys she doesn't usually take the time for...  She's also getting an Inuyasha fix...

And getting a chance to talk on MSN and yahoo with a few people I don't normally get to chat with anymore.

It's 8:06

and is your child tucked in?
Mine is, but sleeping  NOT!!  She's not quite figured out that "tucked in and good night" means no more stuff... no more drinks, no more books and no more trips for Mommy up the stairs.

Gentle reminders don't work, consistent patterns aren't working..ARGGGGGGHHHHH...

The housemate was kind enough to remind me that we went through similar challenges when zagatto went on the last outage, which were resolved after a couple weeks of consistency.  All I can hope is that the same pattern reigns here.  At this point, she's shouting down the stairs "I'm thirsty, I need some milk".  I am studiously ingnoring her.  Shortly she moves into a singsong voice with the same chant.... eventually I will get irritated, either cave in and get her a glass of milk, or go up and explain to her (AGAIN) that when I asked her before I tucked her in, if she needed anything else before bed that included a glass of milk, and that I am not bringing her one now because she has been tucked in and it's bed time.

Alternatively, I have taken the gate down, and she can make her own way to the bathroom for a glass of water, and tuck herself back into bed..... which appears to be the option she has chosen as I hear her footsteps cross the hallway....

The insurance crew is due here by 9am tomorrow morning, and Katina is due at the Pediatricians by 10:30.  Hopefully we'll have results.  Her temperature has been down all day, and her behaviour is back to normal.  Frankly I'm thinking she has an inflated allergic reaction to mosquito bites that pushes her fever up.... I'll have to keep track.  But I'm glad they took the tests and if all goes well, she'll be back at DayCare by noon and I can hopefully get to work.  I hate being off like this...

So... I'm wrapping up to go draft an affadavit....