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Sep. 29th, 2005
Processing...
Sep. 29th, 2005 08:59 pmI've been reading that damned book.... It's challenging. I
figured out a few things that I now understand I need to work on.
1. I'm in the apathy stage of the my relationship. I have stepped out the Power Struggle and am sitting over there in apathy. I'm not exactly sure when I stepped out but I suspect it was quite a while ago.
2. I have a bad case of "entitlement". I need to re-read that section but I think it boils down to feeling like I deserve stuff rather than earning it... I could have that all wrong... but I recognized myself in there...and it felt icky...
but mostly I'm processing something else that's bugging me.
In the process of investigating something on one of my own files last week, one of my "kids" told me something about the life of a friend of his. I told him I would have to tell. I got word today. The friend had been being raped repeatedly by a step-father for about 5 years. I feel sick. I feel sad. I feel angry.
I'm processing... This is such a difficult job... all around...
1. I'm in the apathy stage of the my relationship. I have stepped out the Power Struggle and am sitting over there in apathy. I'm not exactly sure when I stepped out but I suspect it was quite a while ago.
2. I have a bad case of "entitlement". I need to re-read that section but I think it boils down to feeling like I deserve stuff rather than earning it... I could have that all wrong... but I recognized myself in there...and it felt icky...
but mostly I'm processing something else that's bugging me.
In the process of investigating something on one of my own files last week, one of my "kids" told me something about the life of a friend of his. I told him I would have to tell. I got word today. The friend had been being raped repeatedly by a step-father for about 5 years. I feel sick. I feel sad. I feel angry.
I'm processing... This is such a difficult job... all around...
