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10 Things Meme
May. 11th, 2006 09:05 pm1. I really want to share time and space and life with you. In what manner of ways can we make this happen?
2. You inspire me to want to DO things, you have the courage that I lack and the drive that pushes me. So why do I feel like you barely tolerate my presence some days?
3. Will I ever understand how we drifted apart, and what I can do to get you back to being my best friend. I miss you.
4. I picked up a book today as a just because gift, and put it back with tears rolling down my face because I remembered that I'm not allowed to give it to you. I'm not allowed to even wonder about you, and I don't think you even remotely understand how much that hurts.
5. I worry every day about where we are going with this and bury my head in the sand because I'm afraid I know the answer.
6. Thank you for making me feel beautiful, desirable and interesting. It helped.
7. Get over yourself and get on with life. This dwelling on the "what's wrong with me" question IS what's wrong with you.
8. Every day I think of ways I could push you over the edge. I think about what I could do to trigger you just that little bit. But I don't do it. I don't do it, because I live my life trying to never have any regrets. And to date. I don't have any related to you. But pushing you? That I might regret for the pain it would cause the people who actually still DO love you.
9. I really feel badly for you, but I can't even tell you that. I understand you've been through hell and all you really want to do is love your children. And I also understand that you can't see why that won't ever be allowed to happen.
10. Would you PLEASE stop with the investigative bullshit and make a move. This random teasing and playing is getting just plain annoying. SCREW your unstated rules, and boundaries and let's get it on.
That was hard... I'm intrigued by how many I have that are more unasked questions, than flat out statements.
2. You inspire me to want to DO things, you have the courage that I lack and the drive that pushes me. So why do I feel like you barely tolerate my presence some days?
3. Will I ever understand how we drifted apart, and what I can do to get you back to being my best friend. I miss you.
4. I picked up a book today as a just because gift, and put it back with tears rolling down my face because I remembered that I'm not allowed to give it to you. I'm not allowed to even wonder about you, and I don't think you even remotely understand how much that hurts.
5. I worry every day about where we are going with this and bury my head in the sand because I'm afraid I know the answer.
6. Thank you for making me feel beautiful, desirable and interesting. It helped.
7. Get over yourself and get on with life. This dwelling on the "what's wrong with me" question IS what's wrong with you.
8. Every day I think of ways I could push you over the edge. I think about what I could do to trigger you just that little bit. But I don't do it. I don't do it, because I live my life trying to never have any regrets. And to date. I don't have any related to you. But pushing you? That I might regret for the pain it would cause the people who actually still DO love you.
9. I really feel badly for you, but I can't even tell you that. I understand you've been through hell and all you really want to do is love your children. And I also understand that you can't see why that won't ever be allowed to happen.
10. Would you PLEASE stop with the investigative bullshit and make a move. This random teasing and playing is getting just plain annoying. SCREW your unstated rules, and boundaries and let's get it on.
That was hard... I'm intrigued by how many I have that are more unasked questions, than flat out statements.
