WANT

I'm not a big fan of WANTING things. Hell I'm not a big fan of any great emotion that I don't understand, can't control and ties my stomach up in knots.

I learned early that life is easier if you keep a distance from that stuff. Like people, enjoy them, but keep the walls high and strong and don't let the emotions get to you.

I don't like wanting things...anything. Anyone.

Weekly Breszny

Virgo (August 23-September 22)
"Water that is too pure has no fish," wrote Zen teacher Ts'ai Ken T'an. Keep that advice close to your heart in the coming days, Virgo. Your clean, clear ideas will become sterile unless you mix in some quirky, unruly emotions(you don't say???). Your spiritual intentions may become awkwardly rigid unless you loosen them up with a bit of healthy blasphemy. So please don't push for utter perfection. Be careful not to burn away every last flaw or banish every last messy doubt. In order to know the truth, you'll have to consort with BS.

Rewards

There are rewards to the work that I do.

Watching someone become comfortable enough with me to let their vulnerabilities show, and tell me things they've never told anyone else.
Helping someone look at their use of words differently.
Showing someone alternatives to how their life is going.

Allowing someone the freedom to look at the positive pregnancy test and know that whatever she decides, I won't be judging her.

I remember on days like these, that it's the counseling that "charges me up." It's the insight I can help people find, even while the universe laughs in my face at the ironies of life.

Time to research the Master's path.