ujhmmm... Updates...
May. 14th, 2005 08:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
locus_ofcontroShort ones, though perhaps longer than the last....
Katina is off schedule, off program and off-kilter. Poor kid, with me out most nights during the week, she is not getting anyone who thwarts her will. Right now, she's up there hollering at me and I am ignoring her. She's been IN BED for almost 1 hr. At no point has she even entertained the thought of sleeping yet. I've not gone back up, repeated bedime routine of potty, teethbrushing and tuck in, threw in a full Wynken, Blynken and Nod and we'll see how long she now lasts. I have now added the threat that if I have to go BACK UP to tunk her again, she won't be allowed to go to Baby Rowan's house in the morning. This set off a whole SHOWER of tears and I WANT MY DADDY.
Ultimately that's what it boils down to. Her schedule is off AND she is missing daddy tons. She saw & talked to him today over the internet (gotta love webcam) but it's just not the same. Overall, I am really looking forward to being home with her as soon as this current session of classes is wrapped up so I can get her back onto some kind of program. I am also concerned about supper time. She doesn't eat much and then is into 4 or 5 snacks before bedtime. I don't like that idea, and plan on measuring out her supper, limiting snacks to 2 and there will likely be a few nights of going to sleep hungry until she figures out that EATING supper will help. I don't think that's fair to do to a baby sitter so it will have to wait until I am home at night.
For me, I am cranky. Brutally, easily set off, cranky. And I know it. Today all I wanted when I got home from the stupid mall (I am trying to get a cell phone for work, long drawn out, irritating story that has involved 2 trips to the mall and still no phone) was a drink. I didn't have one. But the urge was overwhelming!! Tells me that I am not happy about something in my world right now and feeling very powerless to do anything about it. I have my suspicions what that might be. Having the job is great. But I'm in a holding pattern now until my EAP and benefits kick in.
Other notes, I do like the job. I like the office, the hour drive is giving me a great opportunity to listen to Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. And music I am sure, once I get done the Adam's stuff.... The team day on Friday was great. Good food, a scavenger hunt and bowling!!
Katina is off schedule, off program and off-kilter. Poor kid, with me out most nights during the week, she is not getting anyone who thwarts her will. Right now, she's up there hollering at me and I am ignoring her. She's been IN BED for almost 1 hr. At no point has she even entertained the thought of sleeping yet. I've not gone back up, repeated bedime routine of potty, teethbrushing and tuck in, threw in a full Wynken, Blynken and Nod and we'll see how long she now lasts. I have now added the threat that if I have to go BACK UP to tunk her again, she won't be allowed to go to Baby Rowan's house in the morning. This set off a whole SHOWER of tears and I WANT MY DADDY.
Ultimately that's what it boils down to. Her schedule is off AND she is missing daddy tons. She saw & talked to him today over the internet (gotta love webcam) but it's just not the same. Overall, I am really looking forward to being home with her as soon as this current session of classes is wrapped up so I can get her back onto some kind of program. I am also concerned about supper time. She doesn't eat much and then is into 4 or 5 snacks before bedtime. I don't like that idea, and plan on measuring out her supper, limiting snacks to 2 and there will likely be a few nights of going to sleep hungry until she figures out that EATING supper will help. I don't think that's fair to do to a baby sitter so it will have to wait until I am home at night.
For me, I am cranky. Brutally, easily set off, cranky. And I know it. Today all I wanted when I got home from the stupid mall (I am trying to get a cell phone for work, long drawn out, irritating story that has involved 2 trips to the mall and still no phone) was a drink. I didn't have one. But the urge was overwhelming!! Tells me that I am not happy about something in my world right now and feeling very powerless to do anything about it. I have my suspicions what that might be. Having the job is great. But I'm in a holding pattern now until my EAP and benefits kick in.
Other notes, I do like the job. I like the office, the hour drive is giving me a great opportunity to listen to Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. And music I am sure, once I get done the Adam's stuff.... The team day on Friday was great. Good food, a scavenger hunt and bowling!!
